Lessons Learned

The two loves of my life

                                                                                                                                                       I do not regret where my life has taken me even though right now things are rough for myself and my family right now.   I believe that every move we make has direct effect for the future and because things are so rough right now I believe with a little hard work we will have a great life later on.Here are some lessons I have learned in the past couple of months. One never ever ever live with friends or family it will always end badly.I have learned this lesson the hard way.We have had to do this three times and once we get out of his parents house we are never going to do it again! Living with friends and family is a huge mistake,mainly because Kenny and I are use to our routine and everybody else is use to theirs.I look forward to the day when Kenny and I have a place of our own and we can have Alexis full time and not have to worry rather or not she is being taken care of properly. I hate the fact that we haven't been able to see for the past 2 weeks that little girl is everything to me and I worry constantly when she is in her mother's care.Yeah yeah I know the step mother is suppose to be the monster in this equation but I am really not, I care about that little girl like she was my own and I want whats best for her. I know Kenny is worried that because I am pregnant with our first child that I am going to treat Alexis differently but I could never do that.I love her unconditionally and I love her as she was my own flesh and blood and nothing is going to change that not even me giving birth to my own perfect baby. The second thing I learned is be careful who let into your house.I was a fool to trust certain people and the sting of there betrayal still hurts.I will never forgive than man I once called brother because he stole my kitten Gizmo and I found out that he was talking behind my back.Which leads me to my next lesson learned I need to stop being so naive and stop trusting the wrong people and hanging out for with a better caliber of people.The last lesson I learned is that in order to get anywhere in this life is you have to work hard, never give up, and keep on going no matter how many times life kicks when your down.Just keep moving, and for me my 3 biggest motivators are my finace, Alexis. and my unborn child I would do anything for them to make our lives better.

 

 

 

 

Alexis and I going down the slide at the playground on Easter Day.